Obesogen

I have not looked at my profile data for a long time. Sorry for the misleading message I had. I have always been working on my productivity, but there are always obstacles and I have no allies. I had a really, really, terrible past where I was stuck living with people who did not value my life and nearly killed me. I can barely believe I still live. I feel quite broken, with my creative work being my only goal in life. I should have completed a lot of things by this point, but they destroyed my ability to be productive over the years. But now I really am gaining that productivity I always sought under their devilry. Have been working on Magical Girl Castle for the past 7 years, I think, but I am thinking that I should focus on all of my projects from the past because the game just lacks some things I love, but I still feel like I need to make it. All of my games and stories are missing something and I prefer to release a lot of them around the same time anyway. I would like to release in multiple parts for my RPG Maker projects, but it does not seem possible since both of my planned games have a choice system and it would be hard to make a multi-part project that way without having to brainstorm designs for these incomplete versions while somehow still making these more complicated versions. I have a million ideas and my passion for creating has always been endless, but the lack of encouragement has held me back for a long time. I feel like I could easily make something great, but I am always in fear of my life ending. I do not know how to live my life if no one is going to give me the space to be myself except for a library or something (which I am using). I need to be given space and patience, but I am expected to do things regardless of how much evil was committed against me. I am less capable than I have ever been in some ways, but my mind is great at what I should be doing, which is designing and planning projects and making content and stories. I am living a safer life, but a life of no guarantees and a life where I see everything requiring more time than I am likely to have. At the end of this month (April 2022), I will probably learn more about my stability. I had someone die and no one to comfort me. I could not even open up about it to my father because of how intrinsically scared I am of my family. Anyway, I basically have no filter - surprised that I even lived this long - and I am not sure there is a single project that can capture all of my ideas besides an auto-biography. I really hope to get Magical Girl Castle demo out soon.